Thoughts

suddenly i feel down. a lot lot of things to do.. i can't even sit there manage them.. and the result.. no satisfactory progress in any of them.. it's not just my work.. home too.. other stuff too.. the irritating thing is that when u r working on a task for someone requiring me to go that person. and when i manage to go there and i called him first.. he simply postpones it to another time.. !!!!! ignoring all the pressure i'm going through... i am not able and that free to go there twice a day.. when u have a lot of things to do and someone irresponsibly wastes ur time and effort.. this is very irritating.. i'm going mad because of it.. actually it makes me feel down more and more.. i think i need a ToDo list with priorities... when i was thinking of reducing my tasks to reduce the pressure i realized that i have two sets of tasks: things that i have to do. and things that i want to do. of course there can be stuff that belongs to the two sets at the same time. so what...

nearly 45 days have passed since my last and only post on the blog surprising to me.. and the people who know me (and so few they are).. i used to write my thought in the past in a note book or any pieces of papers available when i feel like writing. usually no one else is allowed to read it.. it's something for me.. i think better when i write things... apparantly this wasn't the case here.. is it lack of time? maybe.. and maybe it is the inner me that no one is allowed to read that prevents me from posting.. till i have some coding scheme so no one will be able to understand :).. the idea is releifing to me.. i've been through a lot of thinking moments recently.. i travelled for somedays. travelling gets u out of routine so u r not caught by daily events.. u spend some time in the train with nothing to do but think.. maybe read.. i wonder why i do not do these things as part of daily actions.. i should do the last few days had a lot for me... and there is more ahead...